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Posts Tagged ‘Photographs’

The Backstory

Posted by loubird on April 21, 2009

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Commissions Committees and Councils
expert formulators, creators of stories
conscious banners of testament
providing neat explanations
packaged, palatable, and positive

entire libraries devoted to deconstructing such stories
peeling off layer by layer
of elaborate exposition overgrowths
hiding dung heaps.

We each have a council proffering
monopsonic truth
seashells chattering under the surf
deciding memories.

so looking back childhoods have no shoes
and cats have no teeth
heroes battle villains
stoic homelessness survived
secret commissions assemble flawless stories
personal folklore formed and dissolved,
elaborate beach built structures.

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City Moment

Posted by loubird on February 11, 2008

With Headphones in my ears, I attack the night-hewn city, and drop effortlessly into the mouth of the late, rush-hour bustle. I know the streets and spires like a canvas that my own hand painted. The cheap Chinese shops nestle next to the spike of the trans-America triangle.

I go to the number 22 and mash myself into the unknown mess of people. I’m careful to crowd the exit as we climb from 35th to 30th to 25th. We careen from stop to stop as I watch my ipod carefully, and the crowd grows. I touch my screen to change songs and forget where I scurry. At 16th and Valencia I finally leave the metal cocoon and prepare my avatar for a night of tricks and underground parties.

Tonight I baby my wounds, all dressed in black down to each nail. Tonight my career will wreck the crystal of a few seedling hearts. I listen to the hum of the district, knowing full well that my fish-netted legs attract the gaze of many of the surrounding men. Tonight my cry makes a spiral to the moon as I love whichever hands touch me first. Tonight others will gape at me. Tonight I forget that I am just a tube letting things in one end and out the other. My branch will heal some other time.

Posted in Photographs, Poems, Poetry, art, city, city life, creative writing, graffiti, photography, san francisco, sex, women | Tagged: , , , , | 6 Comments »

On Sled Dogs and Memory

Posted by loubird on January 24, 2008

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In sled dog territory, I remember the many times
my mind raced in Leary-like ellipses.
I remember how I used to think.
The years appear through the end of an old paper towel tube,
like the one I’d find my way around the house with as a child.
I know I’m not many days past spring chick,
but already I see the years crumple up in tin foil,
un-recyclable balls of faded patterns.
Memories can be friends, but memories are more present than past.
Was I ever really that optimistic?
Did I wander about on these first two rungs waiting for a net?
I remember an awareness of death’s existence
that adults said did not exist in people my age.
I remember dancing on rules like they were best friends
that sometimes I needed and sometimes I didn’t.
I remember a past that no longer exists
and my memory is more present than past.

The past no longer exists.

My past is an old friend who’s moved on.

The past no longer exists.

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Men Hate Shaved Heads

Posted by loubird on December 3, 2007

img_0169.jpgOk, this is a slight ode to the evolution of my hair styles over the past years. Not really an ode, but a word to my observations on people’s reactions. Unfortunately, this is the only picture I have right now of this stage, and really I have few pictures to document my evolution. I started off cutting my hair. Due to timidity, first I cut it to my shoulders and then I chopped it down to about 3-4 inches. Then I shaved it. I let it grow a few inches and shaved it again. I thought, “I want some dreadlocks.” But, in the end, I didn’t have the patience, so I shaved it all off again.  However, eventually I distracted myself enough to grow my hair out and start dreading it.  Now, understand that I have really straight hair so this process took a couple of years. By the end of the couple of years, with the help of some cheap beer, I had my boyfriend shave off all the parts that had not locked up by then. I ended up with a kinda sorta topknot surrounded by shaved head. Which I guess is what a topknot is, so why did i say anything extra? Anyways, it didn’t take too long for the shaved  part to grow out. So this time I had my boyfriend shave a design it. We hemmed and hawed for a little while. Everything I wanted  he said was too intricate for his razor. So, I ended up with a chaos rune. The topknot of dreads was the middle of the rune with the chaos arrows growing out of the knot. I wish I had a picture, but at that time I was not into taking pictures. Then I started letting it all grow into dreads. Then I got arrested and cut them all off before I went to court. But that’s another story. Believe you me, the first time I got arrested I did not cut the dreads, rather, I attended my court session with a head covering–as though somehow that was better. But the second time, I just didn’t have the heart, so I chopped ‘em. Now there’s a reason to mention all this (kinda). In all my hirsute meanderings, men hated–I repeat HATED–it when I shaved my head, any part of it. Minus of course, the boyfriend who put the razor to the scalp, but he was very unusual by many different sors of standards. Oh my God! You would not believe how many comments I got at work, from housemates, even dudes in bars. They hated any time I shaved any part of my head. They much preferred the dreadlocks. The girls are a different story. It just goes to show how most men still have traditional ideas about what a woman should look like. Either that or they want long hair to grab, I really don’t know, because I am not a guy.

Posted in Photographs, alcohol, art, dreadlocks, dreads, hair, hair styles, hairstyles, shave, shaved heads, society, story | Tagged: , , , , , | 15 Comments »

One of those old poems from back in the day

Posted by loubird on November 23, 2007

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Craziness, like an unopened forty visits at night

worrying, like a paranoid mother,

that her children may not be dreaming,

tucking the covers around their chins

whispering sweet nothings

about boot grinding and whippings.

So they rose with mouths frothing

the memory of the muddy road 

fresh on their cheeks,

without really meaning to 

the children exploded and populated

the galaxy with their pulsating bodies.

A milky way flowing away from mother’s tits

and splattering on the black

of the deathless universe

drip dropping farther and further

until the blackness did not look so black

but encrusted with mother’s milk

and peppered with children sliding and spitting

everyone slurping furiously before the curdle

too busy to notice that the white shower

was over.

Mother, after all, was far away by then.

Someone opened the bottle

and the white crust was stained

with sour brown,

glass shattered across the white mesa

with milky boulders and mountainous cliffs.

The children scattered as they puked yellow,

forgot the milky path in the brown cushion,

splattered marshes and trees while they

forgot the high places.

Then the first drip of dark red

cut a river between the children and

sprouted unknown pools and fell into 

new tributaries.

A fog of heat dissipated over the

white and spotted brown

and fell again onto the faces

of the dreaming children with jagged

knives of brown glass in their hands

and so they stood until 

one-by-one they dropped off into

dead sleep

to find refuge from their

splitting headaches, pounding temples

achy limbs.

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